Pastel-Ai

I'm updating frequently, I'm experimenting and figuring out different things to do with my clothes and wigs, I'm having fun, and I feel like I'm connecting with you guys more now! ouo

I had that big inactive stage, and I didn't post anything since like... January @_@; And I had that silly little rant journal.... but it's all good now! c:

Just letting you guys know that I'll probably be making some changes with my youtube and such. I'm going to take a break with the fashion tutorials for the time being, because if anything, I need to reword and fix some of the ones I have up currently. I'm also going to be doing some more relaxed / happy videos (instead of just talking, repeatedly apologizing and updating xP), vlogs, maaaybe some dances in the near future, more reviews, and some general "tip" videos. (Not tutorials, just like, easy ways to dress decora / fairy kei in hot weather, etc etc.) So I hope everything works out!

Also, a few quick updates for those of you here who don't follow my youtube that much:

I have a facebook page now where you can get in touch with me easier:

www.facebook.com/pages/Pastel-…

And, significantly less important, a Tumblr, upon a couple requests that I make one. xD :

anywigwilldo.tumblr.com/

So, thank you all for everything! ^u^ I really appreciate your support and sweet comments! ♥

I hope I'll be a lot more active in the future!

Pastel <3

For those of you who don't know where I get my wigs from, I made a video recently that has the full listing, accompanied by a review. ^^ Please check it out and support the companies! Hope this helps you guys! x3

www.youtube.com/watch?v=WyLF9i…

Love,
Pastel <3

Rant time.

So, today is the last day of my spring break. I have done nothing, my entire spring break, due to a brutal and relentless cold that attacked me the second day of.

I finally got the time to film a video, after a month long absence, and in the end it didn't work out. I normally try to keep a relatively happy face on for you all, but I'm stressing right now. I haven't been able to take pictures, do videos, or do much at all lately, and really feel like I'm being a disappointment.

I want to grow more. My photoshoots are home done with sheets and a digital camera in my kitchen. I don't think that really constitutes as art, but I want to get to a place where it can be. Everyone has to start somewhere, so I'm trying.

I look in the mirror and think about how I've become a role model, and an idol for people out there, and some how I feel that I haven't done enough to deserve that kind of praise. I'm really sorry if this is coming off as some omgwoeismefeelsorryformeeeeeeeeee type rant. I'm actually just very, very frustrated with myself right now. I don't know how to... improve I guess. Get away from the scripted how-to videos and the tutorial and just have some fun for once. If I wasn't a high school student, I imagine this would be a lot easier. I don't want to have to take an official break from doing this, because I've barely started. I just need to force myself to be more dedicated. (Yes, I'm giving myself a pep talk and posting it on the internet.)

I live in a small, closed-minded hick town. I am literally the most visually out going person here, with my only competition being the Elvis impersonator and the creepy guy who walks around in black trenchcoats (yes, even in summer.) I don't have like-minded friends to inspire me, I don't have "others of my kind" to hang out with, so I'm really stumped on where to go with this.

I guess, what I want to ask of you guys is for a bit of a kick in the bum to get me going again. Some motivation. If there's a video you'd like to see me do (prefferably something other than tutorials and such, as again, that's what I'm trying to break away from.) or shoot ideas, anything,  let me know! I'm thirsting for creativity. Please, if you read this, and something comes to mind, drop me a line and let me know.

Thanks so much,
Pastel <3

I am bored. And I have.... 15 minutes till my next class starts. >>.....

In which I have to write a test =3=;; Sad face.....

GAIZ I DUNNO WAT TO TLK ABOUT!!!11 D;

I haven't done any photoshoots as promised lately do to being incredibly busy lately.... with what I'm not sure, but I just don't seem to have any free time lately. O_o; Eh... it's a working progress... >_>; (Haven't even done a vid in like 3 weeks! Dx ahfauhadkjfadd)

I don't know what to wriiiiiite. XD But I'm bored. e_e So I'm writing something.... journals are 'spose to have point right? Ok... let's see... oh... xD My final project painting is going on display in the library at school soon o3o... (All by itself! 8{D Cuz I did goot painteeng.) So I'll probably film that or ... something... xD when it happens.... owo;;

Yea k. I'm done. I got nothing. XD
Ignore this massive waste of time. =w=;; I'm just bored out of my mind. >>; I'mma go... walk around aimlessly till the bell rings. XD

Bye bye

~Pastel Ai ♥

Disregarding the more commonly known "Seven Deadly Sins", I've developed a bad relationship with my "Two Deadly Sins".

What are they, you may ask?

Laziness
and
Procrastination

D:<
I came to the realization today.
That yes, I am a junior in high school, and yes I have a job, but the amount of time I waste mindlessly scrolling through the interwebs and indulging in online mario (ftw) games could be better spent on working towards developing my DA and youtube more.

Therefore~

I'm going to try to get some of that infamous anime spirit and work oober hard for you all! >

I'm going to start taking pictures all the time when I dress up (if I can) to post here. Some of them may not be the best quality, but at least they'll give you guys something to look at in between photoshoots.

I need to get more motivated to work harder, which means regular videos, finishing learning some dances and getting those dang photoshoots done! >:l

Though, it's not ENTIREEELY~ due to my laziness and procrastination. >o>;

Both my sister and I have to work, and our shifts conflict a lot =v=;

However!!! >:C

I have 270+ subscribers and 50+ watchers on DA, and I need to work harder to improve faster for you guys! >.<;

So, again, ranting mindlessly but please be patient as I try to get better! >o<

Wish me luck!!

Pastel ♥